Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Tuesday

To be honest, and that is why I write, today has not been the best of days for a variety of reasons.
I felt bombarded with things that upset me. I did not use my time well. I did not get things done that I wanted to get done, and it is not necessarily because I was really doing anything else that was more important. They just did not happen. I did go to the post office, mailed two birthday cards, and stopped at the grocery store on the way home. Not much more happened.
 I am hoping that since I still have a few hours left before I get too tired that I can at least do a few odds and ends that will make my day start off better tomorrow. I need to clean my kitchen, put away some clothes and change our sheets. Just routine household things that I have been putting off.
God, help me tomorrow to have a better day, serving you and being more productive.

Learning to Trust God . . . With my days . . . One day at a time.



Monday, May 27, 2013

Expectations

I have realized that I should have no expectations from anyone because I will end up being very disappointed, hurt and possibly angry. I have given over my expectations to the LORD and will leave them with Him. People can and will disappoint us. I am sure there are times that I have fallen very short of someone else's expectations of me. I really can not point fingers. These are simply facts that bring me down and are not good for my spiritual life, my mental and emotional well being and my overall health. I will look only to the LORD each and every day as I am on this journey called LIFE!
He is immutable and I know I can always trust Him. I may not understand His ways, and His working in my life, however I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He sees the big picture. So often in our prayer lives, we pray and we seek God and we want answers. Our faith is small and our trust is partial. We have to look for His answers with joyful expectation.We need to learn to expect Him to work and guide and direct our lives. But in those expectations we must never assume that He will answer in our timing. We must always expect Him to answer, however, and know that it may not be in the way we are asking. That is where trust comes in and that is the way He wants it. When we look to Him, and not others for our expectations, we can know He is working things out for our best.

 Learning to trust God . . . with my expectations . . . One day at a time.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Needing Peace

This morning is a brand new day. It is chilly, especially for Memorial Day week-end, but the sun is shining and it is a beautiful day from the LORD. I know He is here as He is every day, I just need to feel His presence this morning, not out in the big world, but right here in my heart. I am not sure what is wrong. I often feel this way on Sunday morning.
God, I know you love me. I know you are faithful. I know you have never left me, and never will. Help me this morning, please, to concentrate on YOU and not these feelings. Help me to trust you, and not to worry. Help me to be kind and compassionate this morning as we go to church and share your love with those who come.  I want today to be about YOU. Your desires, your will, your leading is what I desperately need and want. It is about YOU, Jesus, not me.
I am sorry for wanting to control things and for not leaving them in your hands. It is as if I am saying that I can do better, that I know better, and that I do not need you. I lay everything down at your feet this morning. My thoughts, my emotions, my fears, my wants are all given to YOU. In the Name of Jesus.

Learning to trust God . . . In my nervousness . . . One day at a time.

Saturday, May 25, 2013

May 2013

I thought I would look around and see if my blog was still up and running. To my amazement, I found it right away and realized the last post was in December 2011.
I read a lot of my previous posts and have decided to start writing again. I have never really written for anyone else to see or read and for now I am going to keep my focus the same.
I have found that I can express my feelings to the LORD much better in writing than talking. Even though these posts are not prayers they are written about my life and my relationship with God.
One thing I realize is that I am still learning to trust God  . . one day at a time. Some of my previous posts could have been written recently, since I see that I am still struggling and still growing and sometimes still stumbling in the same ways that I was in 2008- 2011.
God is still walking with me, and I am still depending on Him for my every need, every day.
I will write again soon. Until then...

Learning to trust God . . . In May 2013 . . . Day by Day