Thursday, February 17, 2011

My Walk

The weather today was just too nice to stay inside. Since my surgeries, I have been wanting to walk short periods of time, and so that is what I did today.

I was amazed at how horrible everything looked! There were broken branches all over from the recent storm. A bamboo tree covered the whole width of the path, which also fell in the snowstorm. Other than that, every where I looked things seemed so brown and dead and boring! None of the usual birds or squirrels were even there.

Then I saw a small, but usually insignificant stream, one I had seen many times before. Nothing had changed about the stream, except today it seemed to speak multitudes because it was the only thing that I saw that seemed to have any life! It made me think of God. God has a special way of making things beautiful and special. We just need to look for His blessing rather than concentrating on all the things we can complain about and be negative about.

I also thought about how in about a month this same space I walked in today will begin to bloom and show some color. I think the birds will be back singing, and the squirrels will be scurrying about once again. The stream will still be there as a constant reminder of God's blessings! I love it when God speaks to me in these small ways.

Learning to Trust God,
Carla

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Big Disappointment

I know that God wants us to bring all things to Him in prayer. I know He hears our prayers, and I know He answers them. But I still get a feeling of disappointment and sorrow when He does not answer certain ones like I would like Him to. Why does He choose not to heal, especially a child?

When it comes right down to it, it is all about trusting Him and having faith. I know that, but my feelings still get in there and I feel such pain and disappointment .

I don't doubt, I don't get angry, but sometimes I just don't understand. However, I believe His purposes will still be fulfilled! But then, I don't have to understand because God is God, and I am not! He has never left me, He has never forsaken me, and He has never broken a promise. He never will. He loves us with an everlasting love.
I think the lesson I am learning is that in all this, God desires not only faith and trust but praise, too. That does not mean that it is easy to praise when you see people devastated by horrendous news about themselves or regarding a loved one. He just wants us to continually focus on seeking His face and His will. He wants us to allow the Holy Spirit to comfort us and He wants to take away our pain. He wants to bring us close to His side and shelter us and protect us.

Trusting Him,
Carla

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Stepping Out in Faith

Steve and I have been praying! Praying specifically! Seeking God! Not wanting to go off the path He has us on, unless it is His will!

We have decided to step out in faith and do a little tent-making. Will it succeed? Will it fail? We don't know, but we do know that God know our needs and that if this new endeavor is at all successful, it will be because God is directing us in it.

We need and want His direction and His guidance, and would not have it any other way. He knows, we don't.

I do know that we need more income and that things are very tight. Jobs are hard to find and Steve is still a full- time pastor, so there is much to take into consideration. I am so thankful for the opportunity that we have and will look forward to seeing how God leads us.

Tough times can bring you to your knees and causes you to pray differently. Tough times also lets you see how much you really do have and to be thankful for that! Priorities are different.

So now we wait and pray and continue to seek His face.

Learning to trust God,
Carla

Saturday, February 5, 2011

A New Beginning to My Blog!

I have been writing more again in my journal and I have decided to share a little via the blog. Some things that are really personal between me and God will stay on paper between the covers of my journal!

In the next day or two I plan on writing what I am learning from my personal study, group Bible Study and church. It seems that after I am home, or after I have done the study and contemplate on it, God speaks to my heart on ways to make it more personal to my life. He encourages me and also lets me know where and how to change to grow closer to Him.

So, I will be back soon!

Learning to Trust God,
Carla