Saturday, April 11, 2009

Grief (when you are feeling all alone)

Take time to grieve unfulfilled dreams.  It seems as if grief is always equated with loosing someone, which of course is true, but loosing some "thing" can also cause sorrow and grief.  I am not sure about loosing an inanimate object, whether one grieves that or not. I guess some do, and should not be judged.  But the loss of a dream, a goal, a future, all can be very grievous.  These losses can cause anguish, pain and distress.  You can suffer and be in despair. We just don't take the time to grief those types of things like we need to.  It almost seems wrong, compared to loosing a loved one.  It doesn't quite seem right, and you feel guilty like your priorities are off.  People don't come beside you.  It's a quiet, lonely type of grief that you have to deal with by yourself.  You may be very brokenhearted over your loss, and see no hope or way out.  But the thing about it is, whatever the loss, you do have to go through the grieving process, and give yourself permission to do so.  I don't know how to do it, or what is appropriate, but I do know it is vital. It should not be covered up, glossed over, or pushed aside.  Grieving is real and dealing with it on what ever level is a necessity for moving on and being healthy and whole.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Time Off

Writing this blog has really helped me to grow as a Christian.  It seems as if for me, writing out my thoughts is very beneficial.  It helps to see them in writing!  It has helped me to "verbalize"
my emotions.  It has helped ease my burdens and stress.  I still have a long way to go in learning to trust God, but I have come along way, too!

With all that said, I am taking a little time off from blogging.  I don't know how long. God will let me know when He wants me to pick up the laptop and begin blogging again!  

I have some very deep thoughts that are too personal to put in a "public" blog at this time.  I feel more comfortable writing in my journal between God and me alone!  I can't not write! :)
I want to spend more time in prayer as well.  For me, that will be talking to Him, but spending more time truly listening to His voice.  It is like the beginning of another new adventure with Him!  I will be learning to trust Him more as I listen more for His voice!

I feel a little sadness about not blogging for awhile, yet with that I feel a great sense of anticipation in this new step!

Learning to Trust God . . . Listening for His Voice . . . One Day at a Time


Learning to Trust God . . .  Listening for His Voice . . . .  One Day at a Time


Saturday, March 21, 2009


I often find myself grumbling!  It is not usually  about things, but about people.  
The vast majority of the time I am not grumbling to others, but to God.  I have a special time that I talk to God about these things. Usually it is before I get out of bed in the morning.  I love this time of fellowship and communion with my Father.  It's like I have a daily appointment with Him, and I would feel bad if I missed it! I look forward to talking things over with Him, and I think He looks forward to hearing from me, too!  I talk, He listens; I grumble, He still listens; I grumble more and He's still there.  He  tenderly reminds me of His love.  He shows me His great mercy and patience.  Yet I still grumble!  I grumble more, and He talks to me in His still small voice.  His message speaks loudly to my heart.  He desires for me to hear Him, yet never forces Himself upon me. He reminds me to pray for the people I am grumbling about.  He reminds me that it is them not me and thus He will take care of it, I don't have to!  Often His Spirit gently convicts me of my own sin.  He continues to grant me His mercy and His grace.  I talk more and He is still attentive to my needs, but the more we commune together, I find I am grumbling less, and praising Him more.  I feel comforted, I feel peaceful. I learn to give the thoughts and feelings to Him to take care of.   A journey of learning to trust God is one where I am seeing that I can talk and talk and talk and grumble and complain but god has an answer for me. Sometimes I just have to stop and be quiet and listen. He is always there, always has all the time we need, and looks forward to the next time we come to Him in prayer.  I can't imagine not having my daily talks with Him! I can't imagine what it would be like to wake up and not be able to cast these burdens on Him, and be reassured that He will take care of them.

Learning To Trust God . . . In My Grumbling . . . One Day at a Time


Sunday, March 15, 2009

Cultivating a Relationship With Him

The central focus of our life should be cultivating our relationship with God.  This is what must be in our hearts and minds as we go throughout or day. When we are desiring to improve and develop our  bond with Jesus our lives will change their focus. When we find ourselves obsessing and worrying over things, at those moments God is not first and foremost.  Whenever we are angry and responding in a self-centered manner, we are not focusing our efforts on Him and our relationship with Him. We need to pray for God's Spirit to show us when our thoughts are not right, and when our priorities are not in a place where they should be.   God wants us to know and experience His joy and His contentment.  This does not mean that every minute of every day our life will be stressless or problem free.  No, that is the whole point.  Our lives are full of stress, of hurts, disappointments and problems.  There is pain and sadness.  There are things beckoning for our attention. But our responsibility is to give them to God and move on allowing Him to minister to us.  We need to let Him change our hearts and draw us to His side!
We need to concentrate on what His Word tells us and be willing to allow Him to have His way in our life and heart.
Learning to Trust God . . .  Cultivating a Relationship With Him  . . . One Day at a Time


Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Let it Go!

There is so much sadness in the world today.  People have very legitimate needs, concerns, and pain.  People are dying and going to Hell.
 Yet I have noticed how easily it is for us (me) to get overly upset over small things.  It is too easy to incessantly obsess over things that drain us of our time and effort.  Our passion is often diminished.  In the BIG scheme of things, comparatively, these minor issues are really nothing.  Will they matter in eternity? No, I doubt it. Yes, I know God cares intimately about each and every area of our lives, the big and the small.  I am also thankful that we can bring all of these things to Him and He will listen. He will take our  momentary stress, worry and pain and help us through it all.  I would never tell anyone not to feel like they can't go to God with it all.  I believe we should go to Him and surrender everything  completely.
  Yet, to have such insignificant things affect our days and our opinion of others, so intensely, I think is wrong.  Things happen in this world all the time that can be upsetting and annoying and time-consuming. If we allow them to, they can and do cause us to begin to loose our focus. We too often loose our patience with ourselves and others. People will let us down. They may not always agree with our way of thinking. Things will not always go as smoothly as we had wished. Our things will sometimes breakdown. We will have "bad hair" days!  It's a reality! Satan can use these "every day" things to rob us of our joy.  Our testimony can be altered and thwarted by the way we over-react to people and things.  We allow our emotions to take over. Our relationships can be strained because our "rights" are being interfered with!
  It's time to grow up and let it go!  It's a choice!  We need to constantly be in prayer, seeking God's will in all circumstances, and not let the small things in our daily walk cause us to stumble!  When we have stumbled and fallen, (and we all do) let's make sure we allow God to pick us right back up so we can be about His business in a hurting world.  There are real needs to be met, people to serve and lives that need the Saviour!  

Learning to Trust God . . . In Letting Some Things GO . . .  One Day at a Time.


Tuesday, March 3, 2009

When Things Don't Make Sense. New Beginnings Part 3.

God is trying to help me to see that He is in control.  The thing is, that I *know* He is, I just don't *feel* like He is all the time.   I know, too, that we are not to go by our feelings, but sometimes that is much easier said than done.  I know the right answers, I really do, but sometimes they just seem like nice words on a page.  Where is my faith?  Why do I doubt?  I am not sure I am really doubting, I guess it is more just wondering and waiting.  Learning to trust God can be easy at times, and the hardest thing I have to do at other times. Sometimes I "get it" and other times I feel desperate. I know the answer to my own problem here, too.  When  I feel desperate, it is time to truly intercede before the Lord.  Honestly at times I just don't feel like it.  I have unmet desires and longings. I do know and trust that God has a purpose for my life.  I want those desires and His purpose to be in total harmony.  The thing is that maybe my desires are not His desires for my life.  Perhaps He is still trying to mold me and teach me things that He wants me to know.  I am sure He is desiring me to grow.  So today the title of my blog is very real to me. I am still learning to trust God . . . One Day at a Time, and some of those days are more like . . . one minute at a time.

Learning To Trust God . . . When Things Don't Make Sense . . . One Day at a Time


Friday, February 27, 2009

His Adequacy

What a wonderful thing . . . not to be adequate! 

 Last night we were studying 2 Corinthians 3.  Verse 5 says "Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider ANYTHING as coming from ourselves, but our adequacy is from God."
The key to the whole thing is that our adequacy is from God.  Among all of the other things He has lovingly bestowed upon us, is His adequacy. In Him, we can find satisfaction, acceptability and sufficiency in what we do.  Thus, we can never boast in who we are or what we have done!  It comes from God's grace alone.  When we realize this amazing truth we will even the more praise Him and thank Him for His working in our lives and have that joy in seeing His hand in our lives!

May His adequacy bring you much joy!

Learning to Trust God . . . In my Inadequacy . . . One Day at a Time.


Wednesday, February 25, 2009

He is Teaching Me

Last night I actually fell asleep talking to God about how He would want me to grow.  I wanted specifics from Him as I am trying to focus on those new beginnings I posted about yesterday.  He gave me some ideas!! Yes, before I dozed off He was already answering me!  Today I was sitting here listening to the radio and the song "I Can Only Imagine" came on.  It is a song that has been around for years now and every time I hear it it moves me. It talks about what Heaven will be like!  It talks about what we might do there!  All of a sudden I felt that quiet nudging of the Holy Spirit reinforcing what God had spoken to me last night.  He wants me to be more Heaven -minded!  Heaven is my true home!  I don't normally consider myself a "worldly" person, but God showed me that too often I am focusing way too much of my time, efforts, and thoughts on the here and now.  As I am on this journey to learn to trust God one day at a time, I am learning that there are a lot of things He wants me to do do with my time.  He wants me to focus less on the things of the world.  One of those areas to begin with is to be more prayerful about how much I watch  tv.  I have never thought of praying about something I do so often.  I know that some shows are just a big NO and would never even consider watching them. The issue is more the time element, versus what I do watch. I think there are things I could and should be doing that will allow me to focus less on the world and more on the coming Kingdom!  The center of my interests and my activities should be according to His leading me. I am asking  what He wants and He is answering. Now I just need to cultivate an obedient heart in my new beginnings!

Learning to Trust God . .. As He Teaches Me . . . One Day at a Time


Tuesday, February 24, 2009

New Beginnings

Spring is coming!  I can see tiny daffodil plants sprouting up above the dirt in my little garden.  It is so exciting!  As much as I love winter, spring will bring with it a sense of "new beginnings."
Somehow I am inspired to work on various areas in my life that correspond with this change of seasons which is coming.  I know that God says He is not finished with me yet, so I need to let Him have His way in my life.  I need Him to show me where He wants me to change. I so much want to do His will in my life and let Him guide me into those areas of "new beginnings."  Are there areas He wants to use me, that I am unaware of?  Are there people He wants me to befriend and minister to? Are there new places He wants me to go? Are there things in my life He is displeased with?  The new beginning would be for me to put these things off and to replace them with something else in accordance with His will.  I know some people celebrate Lent and give something up. Lent actually begins tomorrow.  I have never even understood what Lent is all about, but it sounds like a good idea to purpose to give up at least one thing in your life, even if it is for only a 40 day time period. That goes along with the putting off of something, and replacing it with something better or more beneficial. This is especially  important if it will bring you closer to God.  I love the idea of growing closer to my Savior!  It could be that there are actions to put off,  or attitudes that need to be changed.  New beginnings are good. They are necessary.  I have a lot of thinking and praying to do to see how and where God is leading me.  His ways are always best. I will be sharing in later posts some of these areas God points out to me where He is desiring me to have a "New Beginning." In what areas will He be calling me to surrender things to Him?  It is all part of my journey in learning to trust God one day at a time.

Learning to Trust God . . . In New Beginnings . . .  One Day at a Time


Friday, February 13, 2009

Valentine's Day

This post is a little different than my usual, but I wanted to write about Valentine's Day!  I LOVE Valentine's Day.  I love watching people at the store buying flowers and candy and all those types of things for the people they love!  I don't know why, but it makes me happy.  And the balloons. . . they make me smile!  I love red and pink hearts, too!  It is a funny obsession that I have!  Oh and those little boxes of hearts that have conversation words on them . . . yes, I love those, too!  If I had a lot of money I would go overboard on buying all kinds of neat things for people for Valentine's Day.  Stuffed animals, pink and red clothes, candy, perfume, cards . . .  the list goes on!  So, it is good I don't have the money to spend.  Or a better way to look at it is think of all the money I saved! Ha!  I did make up little "packages" for my family members.  To be honest, most of the stuff was things I already had at home.  Cards I bought last year after Valentine's Day for 90% off.  Stickers 90% off. Pink socks from the Dollar Tree last year.  Heart shaped cookie cutters  (2) with a cute recipe for marriage 5 cents at a yard sale. Black and white baskets 2/$1.00, last year at the Dollar Tree.  A package of three make-up bags on clearance 75% off after Christmas . . . you guessed it Pink (and black).  Hearts card games 40 cents each. Pink Cotton Candy body spray 75% off after Christmas!  A book about Jesus $1.oo at the Dollar Tree.  Red tissue paper 9 cents from Walmart after Christmas sale.  White meat containers FREE! Ha! instead of baskets!  I have probably forgotten a few of my "deals"  but I do know that the Lord helped me to put all of this stuff together for only a few dollars. I had fun doing it and I hope that my family members feel special!  I did spend just a little more on Steve, but it was no more than $5.00 from Target! Cheap, I hope not.  Frugal, yes! When you are like we are now counting every penny, frugal is a good word!  Happy Valentine's Day! :)      

Learning to Trust God. . . .  On Valentine's Day . . . . On Day at a Time


Wednesday, February 11, 2009

On My Behalf

This week I have been going over the Scriptures that we will be studying for our Lady's Bible study on Friday night.  We have been studying miracles, and this week we see another miracle performed by the Lord.  This miracle is the one from Luke 8:40-42 and 49-56.  We see that Jesus brought the life of Jarius's 12 year old daughter back after she had indeed died.  There are many lessons from these verses other than the most obvious one of the miraculous resurrection of the girl. I certainly do not want to down play what Jesus did as it was a true miracle, but I see things here for me today as I am learning to trust God on a daily basis.  The first thing that I see is that Jesus was returning to Capernaum, and there was a very large crowd waiting for Him. In verse 40 they watched for Him, they waited, and they welcomed Him.  I do not know what they were expecting of Him.  Perhaps just to "see" Him, or maybe they wanted to have a need met by Him. They knew He was the one Who did miracles and perhaps they wanted a miracle for themselves or a loved one.  I would hope that in my life I would always want to welcome Jesus wherever I am, unashamedly, but not so much for what I can get from Him, but first and foremost just because I love Him.  Loving Him comes first, far above anything else; and then knowing that He will work in my life and do His will.  Secondly, I see a man named Jarius who was a very prominent official of the synagogue coming to Jesus.  His example of humility was a real example to me as well.  His humility in falling at the feet of Jesus and imploring him to come to his house, spoke to me.  He did not care who saw him, or what they saw.  He was communicating with Jesus openly and publicly. He had probably not ever done that before, but in his time of real need, his only daughter's illness, he did what he knew he needed to do. He went to Jesus!  I look at his example for me to be more humble and not to worry about what others around me are thinking when it comes to Jesus. He knew Jesus could help Him and I know that Jesus will help me with my problems as well. I need to always go to Him for help.  Jesus did go with Jarius to his home and healed his daughter. What a miracle!  I praise God that not only did God heal this precious daughter by bringing her back to life, but God performs miracles for us today, too.  He gives us new life in Christ through our salvation, He heals our broken spirits and our broken hearts. Jesus can and does do many other things on our behalf, both big and small, yet too often we do not recognize them as coming from His hand.  So, as I am learning to trust God, I am reminded once again through these Scriptures of His love and His working power in many ways on our behalf! 

Learning to Trust God . . .  On my Behalf . . .  On Day at a Time


Thursday, February 5, 2009

An Hour

Today I am realizing how truly blessed I am, and I have only been up one hour!  I awoke in a very comfortable bed, next to my precious husband.  I held his arm for awhile as I prayed, and then tried to sneak out of bed quietly as he was trying to get a little more sleep.  My house is warm, and if it were not, I could adjust the heat to a better temperature.  I went to the kitchen and made some french vanilla coffee!  If I were hungry, I could have eaten a variety of things including fresh fruit, healthy cereal, whole grain bread, cold milk, or eggs.  I awoke and I am not hungry because I went to bed satisfied.  I sat down on my couch and my sweet cat, Carmella and I had our usual routine.  As soon as I go to the couch with my coffee and Bible, she comes and curls up with me and purrs really loud. This is a special blessing from the Lord.  The sun is shining into my living room and with it comes amazing shadows on the walls.  I see God's handiwork. I hear the birds singing. I have all of these blessings and it's only been an hour!  Then I think of the rest of the world.  Some have no beds and sleep on mats on their floor. Or they are waking up in a jail or hospital room.  Some don't even have a shelter to call their own. I think of what it might be like to not have my loved one right next to me. I know there are those who wake up alone each morning. Many are cold and sick and lonely. They do not feel safe.  I know I am blessed to be able to have warm coffee and a choice of foods.  Some have very little compared to what I am able to find just a little ways down the hall from where I sleep. I am not hungry, I am satisfied. I have the freedom to pick and choose.  Others are hungry when they go to sleep and hungry when they wake up.  Or they are too sick or weak to eat.  I have the comfort of a pet and this gives me much happiness each morning.  Others wake up to a dirty, unhealthy environment with rats and bugs, and it is no fault of their own! I know there are those who wake up and don't feel the happiness and anticipation that a new day can bring.  All they can see is their hopelessness and all they can feel is anger, confusion and fear.  They don't wake up to birds singing or see the sunlight and  marvel at the shadows. Most of all I am blessed because I have the Lord in my life, and I have His Word readily available to me.  There are those who are spiritually hungry.  They are empty and trying to fill a void in their lives with things that will never satisfy.  I have purpose, I have a future and a hope from my loving Heavenly Father.  He has blessed me abundantly with such joy and peace. God has already spoken to me this morning in volumes . . .  and it's only been an hour!

Learning to Trust God . . . .  In an Hour  . . . One Day at a Time


Wednesday, February 4, 2009

An Offering

I noticed that I have not posted in over a week.  It's funny, because I have had SO many amazing times in God's Word, and have tons of thoughts going through my mind about Him. I actually feel like I know Him better today than ever! I have been worshipping the Lord in my heart of hearts and spending much time in prayer.  Usually I get my ideas for my blogging from my time with the Lord, but this past week I guess I needed a break or something!  I love the Lord and am realizing more and more that all I really have to offer to Him is myself!  Even in my hard times and brokenness, my life is still offered up to Him.  I belong to Him, and I would have it no other way.  My life is all I have to give. It is my one and only offering! I give it all to Him!

Learning to Trust God . . . Offering Myself . . . One Day at a Time


Monday, January 26, 2009

Whatever The Reason

More of my writing from the past . . . 

"Whatever the Reason"

Life goes on
Day by day
He wakes me up
For what reason 
Only He knows. 
So, I am here
Ready to be used!
Wondering . . . Where? To Whom?
Give me a word for the hurting
A hug for the needy
A smile for the downcast one.
That's all I can do.
Others soar, succeed,
I fall and I fail.
Give me strength to carry on.
Take me back to the few
The small, the needy, the insignificant.
If it is for them,
Let me serve
Happily, thankfully
With hope.

Learning to Trust God . . . However He Chooses . . .  One Day at a Time


Thursday, January 22, 2009

Good Therapy

The past couple of days I have been out walking in this cold weather and loving every second of it!  Yes, I am bundled up, and don't go too terribly far, but being outside is great "therapy" for me when I am down and depressed!  This week I have tended to worry about the present and the future.  I have not questioned God's love or His character, but in my confusion I have sought to know and understand His will.  Walking out in His creation helps to clear my mind and invigorate my soul! I feel refreshed with a renewed strength and energy to "keep on keeping on" doing His will and trusting Him.  I have also found a renewed peace of mind.  He has changed my thoughts and given me with a heart of  extreme gratitude for all of my many blessings.  He has reminded me of what is truly important in this life. I also have a greater expectation and excitement for His imminent return! It is so easy for me to turn inward and obsess over problems and trials and think the worse case scenarios. I allow my mind to dwell on a sequence of events that could possibly happen, but most likely will not.  These events tend to be the worse thing that could happen, rather than the best!  I have so much growing to do in putting my total faith in God and allowing Him to guide my life daily. He has shown me very clearly that I have been allowing my circumstances  and my emotions to dictate my thoughts rather than His Spirit and His Word.  I truly love the Lord and am passionate about wanting to trust Him in all things. I am thankful He has once again shown His faithfulness to me by walking  beside me and quietly leading me down the path I desperately want to be on  . . . a life of daily trust and obedience to Him.  "Create in me a clean heart,  O God.  Renew a loyal spirit, within me."

Learning to Trust God . . . When I am Feeling Down . . . One Day at a Time


Thursday, January 15, 2009


 In Ephesians 4:1, Paul refers to himself as "the prisoner of the Lord." There are so many other things he could have called himself, as he begins this portion of Scripture.  Perhaps he could have used "godly man" or "follower of Christ" or any number of other descriptive words, but he chose to make mention of himself as the prisoner of the Lord because he was not ashamed. Paul had done nothing wrong.  His imprisonment was because he had preached the good news of Jesus Christ. God had entrusted him with the message of grace as an apostle to the Gentiles, yet he  suffered because of it.  Today when we think of prisoners and jails we think of those who are there because they have done something wrong and are being punished. Or perhaps we may think of someone being a prisoner because they feel trapped by a certain situation or set of circumstances. They don't know where to go or what to do. Paul, as a prisoner of the Lord, knew exactly what was expected of him and he did it obediently with joy and passion. Paul did not use his imprisonment as an excuse not to do God's will. He did not say, "Maybe later, when circumstances are better."  God had given Paul a message to share. Paul goes on to" implore the readers to walk in a manner worthy of the calling which you have been called."  The very fact that he implored them, shows how serious he was about his message. He had learned things in jail about priorities and life.  Paul did not merely make a suggestion, he pleaded with the Ephesians in desperation and earnestness.  He did not recommend to them that they needed to be careful or they might end up in jail, or to keep their faith to themselves. His message was "Just do it."  Paul reminded the Church of Ephesus of their calling.  We, too, have a calling from God. What a privilege and an honor to be called by our Heavenly Father!  Once we have accepted that call and said "yes" to Him, we are to take off our old life and put on a brand new life, which will be evident in the way we walk and live our lives.  This calling is not just an outward show, but an inward change of motives and purposes.  If there is some "prison experience" we are in right now, let's not let it stop us from serving our God wholeheartedly.  We are not in an actual jail cell, but we may be experiencing pain, separation, or confusion that makes us feel like we are locked up and can't move forward.  We may be going through some really rough times emotionally, spiritually, financially, physically, relationship- wise, but we can still walk in a manner worthy of the calling with which we have been called. His Spirit is within us to help us and lift us up each step of the way. We no longer are under bondage to the flesh and self, but God has set us free to serve Him. Our lives must change to bring Him glory. It is important for us to remember our calling to a Godly lifestyle, and pursue it daily.  My prayer for myself is that I will take these words of Paul to heart and not be ashamed or afraid to walk as God has called me to do. I pray that I will relinguish any thing in my life that causes me to feel "locked up" and may be causing me not to walk in a manner which I have been called. May I give it up, hand it over, let go of it and follow the call of God for my life.  I pray the same for you all as well. Amen!

Learning to Trust God . . . In My Calling . . . One Day at a Time


Monday, January 12, 2009

Trusting God

This blog that I have been writing for some time now is all about how I am learning to trust God one day at a time.  Some days I go through things that bring me to my knees and He uses these times to teach me the lessons I need  to learn about trusting Him. Some times people I know are going through tough times, and God uses these times to help me to learn to trust Him, too.  It is not easy to see people I love and care about go through difficulties. Today God used a portion of Scripture to help me to see another aspect of trust. I was reading in my devotional book from Exodus 3: 7-8,  about how cruelly God's people had been treated by the Egyptians.  This cruelty went on for so many years.  It is hard to understand why God would allow that to happen to His own people.  It would be easy to question God.  That is one of those portions of Scripture that when I read it I have to concentrate completely on the character of God! I have to think about the God I know personally,  and the God who loves me and has a plan for my life. He is the God who redeemed me, and set me free. He is the God I am learning to trust. God told His people that He saw their oppression. He knew what was going on, and was not unaware of their circumstances.  Today I realized in a special way that He not only saw the Israelites as a group He also saw them as individuals; just as He sees me and knows me personally. He heard their cry.  He knew their sorrows, and eventually He delivered them. That encourages me greatly to know that when  I may feel like I am being mistreated or misunderstood that God sees all and knows all of my circumstances, too.  Just as God heard the cries of the Israelites, He hears my cries to Him as well. I never have to feel alone or question where God is in my trials. I can trust Him.  I know that in His perfect timing and according to His perfect will He will answer me and show me His ways.  It gives me such comfort to know I am not alone. It brings me such joy to know that God cares! In the good times and the hard times I can say with confidence I am  learning to trust God!

Learning to Trust God . . .  With My Life . . .  One Day at a Time


Saturday, January 10, 2009

Comprehending His Love

I have been contemplating the verses we will be studying and hearing in the sermon tomorrow: Ephesians 3:18-21. Verse 17 talks about how Christ may dwell in our hearts through faith and all about being grounded and rooted in love.  As we move into the next section, we are told that it is possible to comprehend the love of God.  God loves us and He doesn't just want us to know that intellectually by hearing it with or ears or reading it with our eyes. He actually wants us to comprehend His love so much that we allow it to go so deep that it is implanted into our hearts and souls.  With comprehension comes more than mere understanding for it is truly possible for His love to totally encompass us emotionally and spiritually.  It is possible for us to embrace His love for ourselves!  When we embrace God's love and have that comprehension that the verse is referring to it makes sense to us and we appreciate and believe it without a doubt.  God has made that possible to us because He wants to have a personal relationship with each of us. This love is for all the saints.  God did not just hand pick a few choice people and give them the ability to comprehend His love, but His desire is for us all to experience it.  Fellowship with other believers is so important in our growth as Christians, and when we can spur one another on to comprehending the love of God, we grow closer to each other and to Him.  He uses words such as breadth, length, height and depth to describe His love.  It encompasses it all.  It truly exceeds human love and  overshadows  it. God's love exceeds anything we know and is so much greater than knowledge (vs. 19). We know what it feels like to be empty and long for something.  Too often we look to the world to meet these unmet needs. The knowledge of the world and the ways of the world are not the answer we are searching for.  God's love takes care of our yearning and He makes it possible for us to be filled to the brim with the fullness of Himself.  He is all inclusive and makes us complete. Being filled to the brim like this will help us with our relationships.  It is easy to love people who agree with us, who are nice and have not hurt us.  But with God's love we can love those whom are different and whom are our "enemies."  It is His power working within us that allows us to have this supernatural love, through the Holy Spirit (vs.20).  God wants us to come to Him and make our requests known.  He expects us to call upon Him, and when we do, He is willing to answer far more abundantly that we would have imagined because of the power of the Holy Spirit working.  So let's not be afraid to ask!  He does deserve all of the praise and glory for His love and for giving it so freely to us to comprehend.  We need to offer Him praise and thanksgiving today, tomorrow and forever! (vs.21). Amen!! 

Learning to trust God . . .  In Comprehending His Love . . . One Day at a Time


Saturday, January 3, 2009

A willing Vessel

I just finished reading the book "The Nativity Story."  I checked it out from the library with a couple of other books to read after Christmas was over and before the new year schedules begin again.  It was based on the scriptural account of the miraculous birth of Jesus Christ, and much of it revolved around Mary.  I loved reading about how Mary was so human and it gave me a great deal of insight into the thoughts and culture of the day. Now I will have to watch the movie!  After reading the book, I have been contemplating on how Mary was so willing to be a vessel used by God.  Mary had a fixed desire to do God's will, no matter what the people around her thought, because she was doing what ADONAI had asked her to do.  She did not understand all of her calling but lived each day following Him in obedience and courage. I want to be a willing vessel who is used by God. Where He leads, I want to follow with full trust and commitment to Him.  I want to do what He wants, be who He created me to be, and do it all willingly for Him. Each day I wake up I want to be ready, eager and prepared to serve the Lord.  I need to learn to restrain from doing my own thing and to follow God with a willing heart.  After all God created me. He loves me and He has given me my life, not merely for myself, but for Him. He has given me Jesus, as my protector and my refuge. I look at Mary as being filled with faith, and as this new year is beginning, my prayer is that my faith in the Lord will become greater and intensify.  As my faith increases, my prayer is that my will and desires will decrease and I will become conformed more to His image and His will. May I be seen by the Lord as a willing vessel, a servant to be used for His Kingdom!  May I come to know in a deeper and more personal way, the wonder of Immanuel, God with us.

Learning to Trust God . . . To Become a Willing Vessel . . . One Day at a Time


Thursday, January 1, 2009

Joy to You This New Year!

It seems right to begin a new year of blogging with the words "Happy New Year."  I have already said it to friends, family and strangers throughout the last couple of days as 2008 was ending and 2009 was being ushered in.  I do wish everyone a happy year, and I would wish for myself a happy year as well.  But in reality I know I will not always be happy.  I will not always have those feelings of contentment, pleasure, and confidence.  My mood will not always be cheery or merry.  Things in my life will not always be without troubles or cares.  That is just not the real world.  We do not live in a sphere of fantasy where everything and everyone is free from anxiety and problems.  We are not always happy!! But reality is that as I walk with God, the happiness I don't always experience or have can be replaced with joy and trust. It is in knowing Him that we can have joy deep within even when  things all around us seem to be falling apart.  It is very possible that in 2009 we will experience a few or perhaps many trials and tribulations.. Things may be difficult to deal with or understand. We may encounter or come up against issues in our relationships, with our finances, adverse health issues or loneliness . The list doesn't stop here. However, we must always remember that God is in control and that He loves us. He is still on the throne and that alone should bring us to our knees with gratitude and joy even in the darkest of times.  When we look to Him we are then able to look past and away from ourselves and beyond our circumstances.  We will not always be happy, but we can always have joy.  God is with us!  So instead of 'Happy New Year" I wish you all a New Year filled with the joy of the Lord and many blessings! I pray we will all keep our eyes fixed on Jesus in 2009!

Learning to Trust God . . . In  Joy . . . One Day at a Time