When we think of the word crucify, naturally as Christians, the first thing that comes to mind is Jesus and His crucification on the cross for our sins. We should never loose sight of what He did for us, even for a second. Yet, the Bible also says that we have been crucified! "I have been crucified with Christ, and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me." God's word also says that we have "Crucified the flesh with it's passions and desires!" Those are some amazing thoughts to ponder. As I go deeper into trying to understand God's plan for my life, I have been trying to understand and apply these verses. I know that God has given me a new life as a Christian. "The old has been put off and the new put on" and that every sin then is nailed to the cross. My sinful nature is considered dead because of what Jesus did for me. So then why do I keep sinning? Why do I fall so often? All I can say is that this new life must be lived in the power of the Holy Spirit and not my own. I think that is part of the problem. So often I forget to pray and I go about my life on my own, not including God in my everyday decisions. I don't include the Holy Spirit into my conversation, my attitudes, my actions. I need to trust Him in all things big and small. It's not that I don't want to trust Him, or that I don't know I should, it is just I forget! I forget to commit the little things in my life to Him, the average walking and talking type of things. Before I know it I am feeling defeated and drug down by my sin. I am feeling that conviction within my soul that I am not right with God. I need to constantly moment my moment live my life remembering I am crucified with Christ, and that my evil deeds have been crucified as well. I am so grateful God loves me and will never give up on helping me grow!
Learning to trust God . . . Crucified . . . One Day at a Time
I am so grateful that I have learned that God is trustworthy. He always keeps His Word. He never changes. He always loves me with His unconditional love. I know I can put my total trust in Him. I also know that whatever happens He is allowing it to happen for His purposes in my life. Today and every day there are challenges and I guess that's just because we live in an imperfect world, with imperfect people, and mostly we are imperfect ourselves! I find it hard to trust others, but I have to realize that they are not God. No one can ever take the place of God in my life. I find that comforting because He is always with me. When I have looked for someone else to trust and have gotten hurt or frustrated, I realize that I was putting my desires in people instead of God. So at least for now, I will look only to Him. By experiencing His love and growing in knowledge of being able to trust Him, then maybe I can grow to become more of a trustworthy person myself. I seek to know Him better, so I can become a better more reliable and trustworthy person myself.
Learning to Trust Him . . . looking only to Him . . . One Day at a Time
I am very excited today because I have been asked to go back to the Christian Jail Ministry this Sunday to speak. As I am learning to trust God on this journey I am on, I am very aware of the fact that I am totally dependent on Him to do this work Sunday. It is His work not mine. I am realizing more and more that I am needing to rely on Him in all areas of my life, all the time, every day, every moment! I am excited to go to the jail and see the ladies. I get blessed when I am there. They are desperate to hear God's Word. I, too, am desperate for His Word. I feel so unworthy of being used by God to bring forth His Word to them. That is because I am unworthy, except through Him. He is worthy. Yes, He IS worthy!! He is worthy to receive glory and honor and power. For He has created all things for His pleasure! He is worthy!! My heart overflows with such love and gratitude to God for all He has done for me. It amazes me that He is continually working in me, in spite of the fact that there are times when I have little faith. There are times when I rebel and sin. Yet, in my unworthiness, He is walking beside me and guiding me as I seek to know Him better. He is revealing Himself to me. I want my desire to be for Him alone. I want to be used of Him. The more I seek His face and the more I see His holiness, the more I then see my self as one who has fallen so short. Yet, He chose me! He died for me! No, I don't understand or comprehend this at all, but I believe it by faith. That is how I have to live my life, daily, by faith, trusting Him to do His good work, through this unworthy vessel. . . me!
Trusting God . . . in my unworthiness . . . One Day at a Time
Today is a new day. I know God is going to stretch my faith today. I am experiencing a glimmer of hope and an inner measure of His peace. With His hand guiding me, I am looking forward to walking with God today. I am so thankful I don't have to walk alone. I am grateful He is taking us on a journey of faith and trust. It is exciting to see where He will lead. It is comforting to know that whatever challenges will be coming our way, He will be with us. He knows what decisions will we have to make. He knows what needs we will have. We need to trust God and we see Him meet our needs. We need to have our faith stretched even if it is uncomfortable and hurts.
There are lots of unknowns, but I have assurance that everything will be okay because my journey is committed to Him. We don't know which way to turn or which path to take. So we ask in faith what God wants us to do, because He alone knows which direction is best. He is all- wise. He is all- knowing. I know our faith will be stretched today, as we seek His will. But the stretching is a good thing because we are growing and learning to trust Him ever so deeply.
Learning to Trust God. . . and being stretched . . . One Day at a Time
Right outside our front door is a flower pot. When we first were given this pot it was clean and very pretty. As it sits outside in all kinds of weather it has become dirty. Not only is it dirty, but I have noticed a huge crack on one side. It doesn't look new any more. I have been so tempted to throw it away or at least put it out in the recycle bin. But as I thought more about this pot, I realize that God is using it to teach me to trust Him more. For I, too, am a vessel, dirty and cracked! As I am journeying down this difficult path, I am becoming painfully more and more aware of how imperfect I truly am. God knows all of my sins and my imperfections. He is showing me ones that have been so deep within me that they have been hard to acknowledge, as they have been brought to the surface. Yet God in His mercy and grace is still using me, in spite of my brokenness. He is walking with me on my journey reminding me of His love and forgiveness. He is drawing me closer to Himself, and teaching me to trust Him fully. I so desperately and passionately want this type of relationship with God. He is using my brokenness to shape me, to sharpen me, to mold me and to help me trust Him. I need to know He can use me.
When I feel useless and unworthy and I don't know where God wants me or what He wants me to do, all I have to do is peek out my window and look at my not so perfect flower pot sitting on my front porch! It is still home to my Mother's Day plant, with a purpose all of it's own. I have also seen a chipmunk digging around in the dirt inside the pot. This is just another way God is choosing to use this broken and cracked flower pot. I could move the plant to another pot and it would probably live there equally as well. I am sure the little chipmunk could find more dirt to frolic in, if I got rid of the pot. Yet, I am keeping it as a reminder to me that God is willing to use me right where I am, as a broken vessel. He sees beyond the cracks in my life. He loves me regardless of my dirt and shortcomings. My trust in His plan for my life is growing, and He is using my pot as a reminder that He is not finished with me yet.
Learning to trust God . . . in my brokenness . . . One Day at a Time.
I read something incredible this afternoon in Psalms! Something I knew before, but now has even more of a special meaning to me as I passionately seek Him on my journey. Psalm 27:13 says that the Lord looks from Heaven; and He sees us! A little further down the page in verse 18, it says that the eye of the Lord is on those who fear Him. What a comfort to know that we are never out of His loving sight. He is with us always and knows exactly where we are, so if we are straying He can gently guide us back to where we need to be. He knows how often I've strayed in my trust of Him. He sees us as we endeavor to journey together in the rough and tough and hard times of our lives.
Learning to trust Him. . . as He sees me. . . One Day at a time.
A journey has a beginning and an end. I just started a new journey that began some time ago and I did not realize I was even on it. I am on a journey where I am needing desperately to learn to trust God through some difficult circumstances that we are going through right now. We are discovering that due to some mistakes in the past, and some circumstances in the present, we are headed down a path we would not have chosen in our finite minds. Yet our infinite God is taking us down this path to teach us painful lessons that He knows we need to learn. So for that I can honestly say I am grateful because God is drawing us closer to Himself. This journey is one in which I must daily make a decision to either trust Him and His goodness, or try to do things on my own strength and power, which I have found only leads to worry, heartache and confusion. So I am growing ever so slowly to trust God to work in my life. I am learning what it means to trust Him daily to meet my needs. I am learning to abandon the thoughts and the ideas of the world and to cling to Him even when I don't understand what He is doing, or where He is leading. I just have to trust.
I am learning to trust God. . . One lesson at a time. . . One day at a time.
This is a brand new blog as I am now on a new type of journey! I am learning more and more each day what it truly means to trust God. This journey is taking me deeper and deeper into what it means to surrender my all to Him. I would love to have you come along with me as I share my ups and downs, my joys and sorrows and as I seek a closer relationship and walk with my Saviour.
I need to add that I am beginning the blog again after almost a year and a half. I am still on a journey to learn to trust God and seek to know His will for me. I write mainly for myself, but anyone is welcome to join me on this journey.
married 36 years, pastor's wife, 4 grown children who were homeschooled, 10 grandchildren, most important thing about me is that I am saved by the blood of Jesus. I like coffee and chocolate! I like sunflowers, daisies, carnations and roses. I like the ocean and the mountains! I like all of nature and love the Creator.